The learning curve

So my internship is with SheInspires.com.au and CreativelyBelle.com, both are websites run by Belinda. She is incredibly nice, provided more than most for the intern (like lunch and a weekly bus ticket), but I was not learning the technical, design, web stuff that I was hoping to learn. So I have been discussing with her and the people that I work through (Professional Pathways Australia) throughout the weeks and I told them today that I need to go ahead and find another internship. I was expecting to learn a lot on this internship, not only about myself but also my field of study and I was just too comfortable with my work at Belinda’s. I may have just shot myself in the foot, but I really do want to further myself abilities and skills in the graphics world and I was afraid that if I stayed at Belinda’s then I wouldn’t get that push to advance the way I am hoping to while here. It was particularly hard for me to tell Belinda this, particularly because I wasn’t sure how to tell her that I wasn’t learning enough of the things I wanted to learn while working for her. I am not so good at articulating things, particularly when they involve something that was so precious to her, because it is literally her own business that she has created and managed to make a living with it in the process. I more so wanted to let her know that I wasn’t leaving because of her, she had been nothing but kind to me…so in an uncomfortable situation for me I teared up while telling her this (I really hate crying in front of people, particularly people I don’t know very well) and ultimately I hope she got the message that I appreciated her and willingness, but there are just some things she wasn’t or couldn’t teach me.
But because transferring to a different internship now may cause further difficulties for me to gain all 12 of my internship weeks for school requirements. I will have to make a decision by the end of this weekend whether I will stay or risk waiting to find another option, which according to the happy, helpful, dedicated people of professional pathways Australia, may take up to 8 weeks (just a little bit of sarcasm for you).